Hello, everyone, it has been awhile since I’ve written about my life and what is going on. I took a couple of weeks off from posting on my FB page. As did the girls that help me post.
First off let me start by saying that God is faithful and we have to try to be as well. I loaned some money to a family member 2 years ago in good faith about 10,000 pretty much my savings from my parents, estate money that was left from my portion of their estate. I got sick right after that again with the Hashimoto’s and depression came hard with that illness too.
Money was tight and I was not being paid back after several attempts to get something worked out. Things were starting to get tough here at home and it looked like there was no way out unless that money was paid back to me and that was not going to happen sadly. We live and we learn many times the hard way. Last week I got a letter from the Environmental Litigation Departments lawyers. You see my Father passed away as part of that class action suit. He had worked at the same job 45 years and had gotten asbestosis in his lungs.
At the time of his Death, my Mother was told he had gotten out all that was going to be paid to him. A sum 1/8 of what many got that didn’t even have the mesothelioma! So, God bless her sweet heart she let it go as anyone would have. The letter stated that my Father had money in his account and more coming. I was in tears sobbing that beyond death I felt like my Father saw that I had done a good dead for his son yet nothing was coming back to me and now I was struggling with Dr bills, medication a mortgage and was not able to really eat right because the money was so tight my savings was gone. I had loaned it out to a family member.
I thought about my Mother and how frugal she and my Father were and how she could have used this money for her when she was alive. But, I know that God works in ways that only he knows the why’s too. At first, it was wow God this can’t be happening. I thought about putting my home, the home I love and poured my inheritance money in and it was hurting my heart to think of this. But, there seemed to be no other way out. Then a week before the letter came I was reading and studying God’s words and thought of
Hebrews 13:16 “Do not neglect to do good and to share what you have, for such sacrifices are pleasing to God.” or
First John 3:17 “But if anyone has the world’s goods and sees his brother in need, yet closes his heart against him, how does God’s love abide in him?”
I knew that somehow things would look up, God did hear my cries and the prayers from so many of you on my FB page and friends and other family members.
It will take awhile but, the funds will be disbursed to me little by little as they come in. If God can do that for me, he can work miracles for you too, never give up on God, never give in to the devil. He has been defeated!! God, is the one that rules in my heart even with all that I have faced in my life. Many times it seemed like one hit after another, I just kept sharing love, hope, my faith and God has blessed me yet again.
I know that my Father who now lives in Heaven with my Mother and Jesus did not arrange this for me, but my Father in Heaven did. And I’d like to think that my connection with my parents as I am a part of them still lives on in my heart. The heart has connections that are so strong, it amazes me for sure.
I’m living proof that God cares, he loves us and wants our happiness. Keep the faith in your darkest hours, promise me and yourself that you will always look to God for each and every need you have!