I have been a creator since the day I came out of my Mother’s womb. I was born to create things, loved it and I called it my passion. Nothing I loved moved than decorating my home and was complemented on it for years. I also had an eye for fashion, loved to dress for success as well. My Mother and several of my friends use to say, is there no end to your talents! That always put a smile on my face, it felt good that something that came from me would make others smile, or ask about it. The best part of it all was that I loved doing all of it. From turning a simple Christmas Tree that looked lopsided into an amazing focal piece when you walked into my room. I could do that all weekend, cook. bake, clean and then go out to dinner with my family. Years and years of living life to the fullest.
One day about 12 years ago I went to a local Dentist in my area and said I want a new smile, bright, white and dazzling. So, we got started right away 30 of my teeth were either capped, crowned, or veneered. It was so nice in my late forties to have a great smile. Shortly after I started losing my hair, and a lot of it too. I noticed that my vision at night when I lay down at night and turned on the TV was a little fuzzy. I had just lost 35 pounds and felt wonderful otherwise.
I begin to notice little changes over the next few years, like at night when I took a hot bubble bath, my feet would sting like 1000000 fire ants were on them. I required more sleep much of the time but, not all of the time. Then about 5 years later, I went through menopause and gained 20 lbs. After the death of my Father, I went back to the gym where I had alway gone to work on getting that extra weight off, something I had done many times. Yes, one of those yo-yo folks up 10, down 20, up 20, down 10 and so on, all my life ( could this be part of a problem down the road for us). Well, as I did the usual, walk, run, lift weights no one lb fell off, week after grueling week for 4 months, in fact, I gained more weight. I felt tired after exercise something I had never felt before in fact just the opposite. A couple more years rocked on and my body started to ache from head to toe, every so often like I had been in a fist fight the night before, and I couldn’t put a finger on WHY?
My family noticed it, I had all but stopped cooking big meals, and my baking they loved had come to a slow roll as well. We not happy about that and thought maybe I was just staying into much, board, or perhaps depressed of the death of my parents. OMG, I mean come on, I lost the two people that gave me life, were such a huge part of my life for 52 years, so yes! I was depressed a bit but nothing like what they were making it out to be. I knew me, my body and it was saying something different. (Listen to your body ladies, please) It knows.
I was having back trouble about three years ago and decided to see a Chiropractor, so I sought out one of the best in Birmingham. He was a neuro Chiropractor and a very wise young man at that. He ask many questions and had things laid out for me to go over with him. A plan of action for my back, but there was more. He asked to do some blood work at the local Hospital lab, and I agreed. Once the test were in he told me it looked strongly like an autoimmune disease called Hashimoto’s but he wanted me to see a Dr for a total follow-up.
I did just that right away, and more bloodwork, and other tests for me to do at home. When it came time for the results many of you know it was the Nurse Practitioner that gave me the results with my best friend there by my side. She said it is confirmed you have Hashimoto’s, it is not that big of a deal, no gluten and take your Med’s. Oh, you will have some bad days but more goods days for you!
Ok, well to that I say BS – I spent the next three years in expensive online seminars, trying mineral, vitamins, the right foods such as the AIP diet and it is NOT cheap all organic foods, right down to the meats with no hormones and antibiotics. I spent over 5000.00 in that three years trying to get better, find ways to care again, feel like getting up and getting dressed and nothing! I might have felt a little better here and there at times, and I did lose 35 lbs. After not feeling well I went back to this same Dr to see what the problem might be, only to find that her office had made a huge staff change and the Nurse Practitioners and much of he staff I knew were gone. I spoke with a new NP in training, and she looked at me as I was telling her about my thyroid meds, and Hashimoto’s like I was from another planet, truly!
I thought ok, this is odd but hey she is new and I do feel bad, maybe I am over reacting. The Dr comes in and says Hi Debbie, wow I am confused a bit, you say you have Hashimoto’s and WE told you that here I see you have thyroid medication, but that was for your adrenals, they were very low! She went on to say you do not have Hashimoto’s all your test were fine, I see your first blood work from the other Dr. and your antibodies were ever high but the last two we did were fine. Not sure what is going on Debbie, maybe depression? I wanted to scream, ARE YOU KIDDING ME?? My best friend was here, she heard it all, you can’t just come in and say nope your fine, or maybe your just depressed! Hello, Dr, I am sick do you get that. She then looked over my chart and said Debbie, there is something going on with your immune system, your adrenals are very low .. I need to do MORE test, I am pleased to say they are all done and Nov 23rd I need some answers. I have not been able to be the creative person I was, the desire is there, but the get-up and go had left me. It is still not there like I want it to be. Now, listen I know about depression, this is I want to, but I can’t. not I don’t ant to move! Through it all, I have pressed forward each day, thinking positive, knowing that I’d beat Hashimoto’s or put it in remission for good, but then finding out I didn’t have it, back to square one I am at a loss for words. I’ve had many of you share your ideas, herbs, oils, and I am so grateful to each of you. Once I find the answer to what it is, I will then know what to do, which way to do. Jeri, the friend that was with me the day I was told I had Hashimoto’s has been posting on the page for me a lot these days, Lord thank you for friends.
Ladies, what has happened to me seems to be happening a lot to us, tired for no reason, not so much loss of interest but just loss of our drive it’self to get things done timely or done the way we like them. We have tested the Thyroid, my hormones, Addison’s, graves, Wilson’s syndrome. I do not eat gluten, sugar, or dairy. That has helped some, but I still feel tired much of the time, foggy headed, etc.
These awful changes in my life have moved me even more so in finding out just what is happening to my body, that seems to be affecting all of my these days. I have always had a very sensitive body, it seemed to alert me the first sign of sickness, I felt blessed that way. This time it is trying hard to tell me something, I just can not for the life of me figured it out, yet! But, as I said it has moved me to get to the bottom of this and live again. Lord how I want to live my life with the passion I once had. This too shall pass I tell myself, and I will be able to share with so many what has taken place in my body, and why. For now, I come to you M-S on facebook nd that brings me much joy to still share the beauty I love so much in life, and always have.
Thank you, for your prayers, well wishes, advice, as soon as I know something that is REAL you all will know it too. Have a peaceful evening, and I will see you all soon, updates will be here on the blog from the est so bookmark it or watch from my FB post ok. Wishing you all happiness, love, and good health! It will get better, I just know it will.